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當兵這段緩衝期
                                                                               
就像是在蛹裡面蛻變等待重生
                                                                               
而我在這蛹裡
                                                                               
夢迴著過去 思考著未來 重點不在於現在
                                                                               
睡眠品質差的主因 往往是心羈絆於這兩者 很不切實際吧!
                                                                               
畫面瞬間跳到小時後
                                                                               
玩著紅白機跟填充娃娃對話的遊戲 種綠豆 養蠶寶寶
                                                                               
典型的城市小孩的童年
                                                                               
背景一換 又到了國中畢業旅行 露營烤肉 衝著宵禁出去混 上課放學的趣事
                                                                               
沒有煩惱的年代
                                                                               
跳到了高中 參加舞會 佈置校慶 永遠都來不及理解的酸鹼反應 在教室唸書準備聯考
                                                                               
自尋煩惱的時期
                                                                               
最近有幾次按下Z鍵 進入精華區瀏覽大一以來的生活點滴
                                                                               
天啊! 當初怎麼會有那樣的文筆寫出現在必定隱藏在心中的感觸
                                                                               
煩惱反噬的紀元
                                                                               
那些恍如隔世的曾經
                                                                               
就像腦海中隨浪花一波波打上岸邊的瓶中信
                                                                               
撿拾起來閱讀 才知道內容是什麼 喜 怒 哀 樂 我無法選擇
                                                                               
也無法抑制混沌思緒的好奇心
                                                                               
將近1/4個世紀 信中種種 夠瘋狂了吧!
                                                                               
可總不夠 不夠精采 不夠深刻
                                                                               
嗯 一定還有什麼理想沒有達成 還有什麼壯舉沒實行
                                                                               
畢竟還沒有此生足矣 死而無憾的感覺
                                                                               
所以思考著未來
                                                                               
我該怎麼走? 我要怎樣的人生? 我想過怎樣的生活? 我如何達成願望?
                                                                               
"你年輕的時候還滿帥的嘛" 我這樣稱讚著艦上長官
                                                                               
後來才發現他那大頭照也不過是四年前的事 而他28歲                                                                                

原本真心的稱讚摻雜著消遣意味
                                                                               
還有資格抱有憧憬嗎? 抑或是對過去設計出的未來人生道路妥協?
                                                                               
接下來幾年未知的變化 不亞於身高暴增的青春期吧!
                                                                               
希望 能準備好 逆轉出 該我的 宿命
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